Georgia Mud Fudge

I officially finished off my spring semester on Wednesday April 22nd! I am keeping my fingers crossed for straight A's but it is too hard to tell right now. I am sitting at a house in Atlanta Georgia right now and this hardly feels like a vacation. My bf is out for his best friends bachelor party and I am stuck in a tiny wood frame house looking at an empty fireplace. I kind of wish I was rolling out with Pharrell right now.. Where are the Real Housewives of Atlanta when you really need them? I'm pretty sure NeNe and I would be chugging some wine having a great time. So this whole tip is sort of awkward because everyone here is very, very conservative and Christian. Which is totally cool but.. It's a little intense not going to lie. While I am waiting here in the living room I spyed at least 18 things with the word Jesus in it. FML.... Does anyone have any black friends in Atlanta?? Plz save me!!!

Flight 1988 from Miami 2 Atlanta!

Today I flew out of MIA International Airport with my bf Oltion to his best friends wedding in Atlanta. Anyways, Pharrell Williams was sitting in First Klass with his entourage. Pretty short lil nugget but his style is kickin. All LV luggage and a white rainbow LV backpack but nobody on the plane knew who he was because the average age was 55. Anyway, his gf was sitting in Coach next to the brattiest child in the whole world! lolz. He's been dating her for 5years and it does not look lie hes putting a ring on it anytime soon. Drop it like it's hot girl!! :P

Chuga Chuga Choo-Choo!!

My life took a weird twist in 2009. The Sunshine seemed to fade when my relationship ended just before my fall semester. I felt the rug slip out from under me. I could not concentrate for months on end constantly longing for my lost love. I did everything with him on my mind. Old memories haunting me day and night. This did not feel real. This did not feel right. I forgot how to eat. I forgot how to sleep. I forgot my self-worth. I felt like I lost my entire future. I realized I could never love another. My own personal Romeo & Juliette playing out before my eyes. I floated through those months of pain until only recently. After fall semester, I experienced a terrible loss. I lost my mother to suicide the day I got back for winter break. I do not try to hide this fact because I think that it should be talked about. My mother ended her own life because she was taking care of my father who is very ill with Dementia. His disease has inhibited his ability to do the simplest of tasks including giving my mother the same love he once did. So tragically, my parents relationship ended just as Romeo & Juliette's did. Something so good is not meant to last... My brother and myself currently care for my father while going to school full time. I am often pondering when my life turned into a series of unfortunate events. Sometimes all I can do is cry but you can only cry so much. I don't feel sorry for myself. I want to use these terrible events as a springboard into a brighter future. I refuse to let this define who I am as a person. I am still happy and loving. I do not hate my mom, and I never will. I do not hate God and I do not hate myself. I feel like this can only make me a better person. Maybe I am supposed to speak out about suicide and depression. Many mother's my mom's age were deeply hurt by my mom's sudden and surprising passing. I feel like her suicide resonated with many women her age. More people than you think suffer with depression. My mother kept hers very hidden. Glazed over with many big smiles and lots of laughter. Anyways, just never be hesitant and give your love and appreciation to everyone around you. Never stop striving for your goals and dreams. If you feel like it is impossible always remember that I'm not going to give up either. Let's achieve our dreams together!

xoxo,

JJH